Saturday, March 11, 2006

Dialogue

Instant Message dialogue with a really good (male) friend of mine...

February 16, 2006

ME (8:06:56 PM): what up yo... just a quick hello to my little wisconsin student...

HIM (8:07:10 PM): hi there, girlie.
HIM (8:07:22 PM): I am actually in scottsdale, az, on a real estate trip.

ME (8:07:37 PM): oooohhh.. you doing good w/stuff & life?
ME (8:07:56 PM): i rec'd your email about dating that chick - so thats cool you've found a little friend :)

HIM (8:08:28 PM): yeah, just stressed b/c I've got an econ test tomorrow.

ME (8:08:51 PM): good luck w/that then - im feeling like total ass - got some horrible sick/flu bug.
ME (8:09:02 PM): just woke up to reload on the drugs
ME (8:09:20 PM): but back to bed for me... take care babe

HIM (8:11:18 PM): sorry to hear that girl. What have you been up to? haven't heard from you in a while. You generally ok?

ME (8:11:45 PM): id love to say yes, but the truth is things have been a real struggle
ME (8:12:04 PM): im planning a trip to see my rapist - uh.... yeah... im crazy

HIM (8:12:30 PM): What?? Do you know this dude? Was he a friend of a friend or some random dude?

ME (8:12:50 PM): he was a random from my junior college back home
ME (8:13:02 PM): a sorority sister works in a law firm and pulled a few strings for me
ME (8:13:22 PM): she has given me a few addresses & phone numbers matching the info i gave her from that night.
ME (8:13:54 PM): he's in nevada - im going in november - on the anniversary of it all... the anniversary is my birthday - eek
ME (8:14:33 PM): yeah - i am definately crazy

HIM (8:14:48 PM): Are you going alone???
HIM (8:15:05 PM): Did you ever file a police report?

ME (8:15:12 PM): no police report

HIM (8:15:21 PM): Why didn't you have some big dudes kick his fucking ass?
HIM (8:15:37 PM): what are you going to say when you see him?

ME (8:15:45 PM): havent decided if im going alone - who the F* would i even take on this trip?? so crazy

HIM (8:15:54 PM): are you bringing pepper spray?
HIM (8:16:21 PM): (Missing Link), before you go ... try to figure out what you want out of it and bring some kind of protection.

ME (8:17:08 PM): i dont plan to talk to him at all - he would deny everything anyway. i just need to see him... from a distance is all
ME (8:18:47 PM): i just need to take this trip to see him again is all... but i do plan on the protection stuff - just in case. you never know. life can get real fucked up sometimes right? okay... i better get back to bed. whoa - cant believe i just told you all of this. these drugs are crazy

HIM (8:19:01 PM): are you pissed? do you want to inflict pain on to him?
HIM (8:19:24 PM): well, goodnight, (Missing Link). Take care. You know that you can count on me to be a good friend.

ME (8:19:58 PM): yes. i really do want to kill him. but in such a tortured way to make his life as miserable as he's made mine

HIM (8:20:55 PM): Well ... I do believe in Karma. However, sometimes it's better to speed up the process ... you know what I mean?

ME (8:21:45 PM): i agree - if you find any machine guns laying around any one of your real estate trips, ship 'em out to me.... i have until november to practice the shooting.
ME (8:22:17 PM): later babe - please do call me to meet up during your next trip home

HIM (8:24:48 PM): not talking about machine guns ... it would be more of a psychological fuck. For example, if he is married or about to get married ... somehow let her know in a non-obvious way.

ME (8:27:19 PM): ooo... didnt even think about that one. keep sending me more good ideas like this if you have any more. im a woman on a mission to get her life back somehow, someway... whatever it takes. as long as it takes. but november 17 is it... crazy im planning to take a week off to do this. but i have to...
ME (8:27:50 PM): xo

HIM (9:08:17 PM): buena suerte

2 Comments:

Blogger Admin said...

Hi Missing Link,
There are programs that help you with meeting the person who assaulted you, maybe you should consider one. It may be helpful.
Good Luck with the meeting! take care

3/12/2006 10:10 AM  
Blogger The Missing Link said...

Oh. I didn't know this... you're right - this will be very helpful... this is all very confusing for me, but I have to do it. Thanks Holly :)

3/12/2006 10:25 AM  

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