Letting Go...
I think I'm going to let go of a few things/people in my life. I can't say much else other than it really sucks. They're relationships that have been confusing to "read." I don't like not knowing how I feel. I don't like not being able to 100% trust anyone because they've already hurt me pretty bad once... or because I've already been screwed with a few times.
I want to move forward with my life. I don't know how to do that if I have "confusing energy" around me. God, that sounds so cheesy, but it's true. I feel like I've reached a point where I've been "played with" for so long, meaning - I don't know how I feel, that it's almost holding me back now. It's making me feel stuck or something for some reason. Who wants to feel stuck? It's a pretty shitty feeling, believe me. I don't know if I should trust my head or my heart...
I just want to know the truth already. That's all. I want to know why she feels the way she does, what he really wants, why he's back, if it was real love then or if it's real love now.
I don't understand what I'm feeling. I'm pretty sure I just need to know the truth already. I need a sign, one way or another. I'm putting this out there, to the world... I need a few signs, please... until then, I'm done... I'm letting go...
I want to move forward with my life. I don't know how to do that if I have "confusing energy" around me. God, that sounds so cheesy, but it's true. I feel like I've reached a point where I've been "played with" for so long, meaning - I don't know how I feel, that it's almost holding me back now. It's making me feel stuck or something for some reason. Who wants to feel stuck? It's a pretty shitty feeling, believe me. I don't know if I should trust my head or my heart...
I just want to know the truth already. That's all. I want to know why she feels the way she does, what he really wants, why he's back, if it was real love then or if it's real love now.
I don't understand what I'm feeling. I'm pretty sure I just need to know the truth already. I need a sign, one way or another. I'm putting this out there, to the world... I need a few signs, please... until then, I'm done... I'm letting go...
posted by The Missing Link at 8/17/2006 08:07:00 PM
2 Comments:
I can see you are in a difficult place right now. I can relate to this post quite a lot. I have a very complicated relationship with my boyfriend. We have broken up several times over the years. I am not sure were we are now. I am not sure were I am with myself, I am not sure he knows were he is (with himself) either. It is hard.
I also have a couple of friends I am not sure about. I mean they are friends, good friends but relationships, friendships, are all different and sometimes I don´t know what some are really about.
I had in the past let go of some people, one of them I regret. Some I am sure I don´t, others I just don´t know.
It is hard being confused. Never knowing for sure.
I also wish I knew. 100% clarity. Know which way to go, which way is forward, no more circles. No more stuck.
Hope you get the signs.
Take care of yourself.
Thanks Breeya :)
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