Raped Again...
Needed to get this out, but will share more later... when I have the time and headspace...
I was raped again in November. And a dear, close friend of mine was assaulted (she fought him off, thank God), on January 12, 2008 at 2:00 am.
Unsure how I feel about everything right now... trying to drown myself in work in the meantime, but... believe me, I am FIRED UP to make a fucking difference in this FUCKED UP and UNFAIR world.
I'm okay, and so is my friend... life is just a bit of a roller coaster again... one day at a time... one step at a time...
I hope all my readers are doing well :)
I will share more as soon as my heart allows...
Much Love
I was raped again in November. And a dear, close friend of mine was assaulted (she fought him off, thank God), on January 12, 2008 at 2:00 am.
Unsure how I feel about everything right now... trying to drown myself in work in the meantime, but... believe me, I am FIRED UP to make a fucking difference in this FUCKED UP and UNFAIR world.
I'm okay, and so is my friend... life is just a bit of a roller coaster again... one day at a time... one step at a time...
I hope all my readers are doing well :)
I will share more as soon as my heart allows...
Much Love
posted by The Missing Link at 1/16/2008 12:53:00 PM
2 Comments:
Hello, I am 15 years old, and i am currently suffering what you have suffered and maybe still are at the moment. I was, well you know, on my birthday as well, and i wanted to say that your blog has helped me understand and let me know that i am not the only one that this has happened to.
There was no e-mail link on this website, so i decided to leave a comment, hoping that you will read it.
I would just like to say thank you.
Your blog has helped me in so many ways.
Anonymous -
Hang in there... It DOES get easier, I promise. And I'm not going to lie, some days are still tough & confusing. And esp when other areas of Life just don't seem to cooperate, it makes certain things seem uncontrollably overwhelming.
It's really fucked up we were raped on our birthdays, isn't it?? I am in constant awe of the irony of what our lives have become: We died the day we were born; The day we are to celebrate our entering this world, we mourn the day our world was taken away from us.
I'm extrememly grateful this site is helpful to many survivors out there. So many times I've thought about deleting it, letting it go, "getting on with my life"... except it would defeat the purpose... This site is PROOF that, even through the shittiest, most fucked up, of experiences, LIFE IS POSSIBLE, and enjoyable. This site is a daily log of how I have managed to get on my with my life... one day at a time... one step at a time...
"Live each day as a seperate life."
I know some of my life's truths in this blog are too hard to stomach, but that's just it... it is my LIFE'S TRUTHS. Why should I hide or keep these torturous secrets locked away? Especially when YOU, my readers, are proof that what we (survivors) feel, are 1,000% valid to the bone of each word. No matter what, we are completely validated and justified in what and how we feel.
In fact, truth be told, this blog was the first step in my recovery... sharing all my closet's skeletons, letting them out, THROWING them out, proving that I AM NOT ALONE... and neither are you.
Rape and sexual assault is EVERYWHERE. And it fucks you up. It leaves you dead, yet you are walking, talking and breathing... but unable to see or move or talk... life becomes an muddy puddle of horrific irony, covered with constant reminders of who you were and what you lost.
It's a challenge, but not impossible.
My second rape was just a week before the anniversary of my first one... a week before my 29th birthday. I will share more about this experience, and about what happened to my dear friend (and how she escaped) soon, but... just let me say this... that this time around... this second rape of mine, and my friend's assault... I am fired up... like something so powerful has been unleashed inside of me... I have to make a difference. I have to, and will, blow the cover and force everyone's eyes open to the reality of RAPE.
Much Love :)
xo
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